With so many friends pregnant I get to talk baby talk a lot!
I do realize that this period of them asking me my opinion will be short lived. Soon they’ll have their new babies and soon after that they may have another and another….I will still be here with Sunshine taking it all in, getting excited for my friends, holding babies and giving them back to their mothers.
A recent trip to Queens to visit Mother Dear and The Goose has me a bit concerned about the idea of more than one. There went The Goose running at top speed, Sunny trailing closely behind her: Play this, watch this, eat this, what’s this? Wanna see, chase me, say 1-2-3 then go, okay? Love, love, and more love spills from my heart while pain, pain, and more pain is felt in my aging joints. I looked at Mother Dear and said, I’m not sure I want to do this…2 is different then 1. Our girls are 1.5 years apart and as adorable and sweet as any little girls can be- they are in a word…easy- so why did I feel like keeping up with them was is so hard? There was them and then there was me: Not too rough, watch out, don’t jump so high! Don’t put that in your mouth, are you okay? Mama needs a rest, Aunt Stephie can’t catch you again, 1-2-3 here I come!
At the end of the night there was movie about a Princess who kissed a frog. I watched our girls watch the screen- a black princess in New Orleans- they were mesmerized. How stunning they both looked there, so cute and perfect. I imagine us touring their first apartment, wedding dress shopping, and visiting them in Paris one day. Couldn’t I invest in the kids that are already here? Couldn’t I be their crazy-but cool Aunt who raised one kid really really well? I have an imaginary second child- somewhere floating in my head, dancing through my thoughts as we toured this home today….http://106montclairave.com
Imaginary is not the same as real, it’s a thought so small and fleeting that even I have trouble catching the gender and face. Still it’s fun to indulge, to see, to listen.
Happy Valentines Day to each of you. Today is Sunshine’s 14 month birthday- tomorrow we’ll post her photos. A little love quote for my baby girl on Valentines Day:
“I love her and that’s the beginning of everything.” –F. Scott Fitzgerald
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