I have often spoken about how Little Love Stories is my dream come true. I am constantly amazed that I get to be a photographer and filmmaker. It isn’t that I haven’t earned it, I have, it’s more that I am grossly aware that most people do not get to make a living doing the very thing that brings them the most pleasure.
When my kids grow up I have a zillion things I want them to know- but first is this, Time is a thief. The life you live will be defined by time. Sometimes it will feel like you have forever, and other times ( most of the time) there will never be enough time.
Though you can’t control the passing of time, you can dictate how you spend it and with whom you spend it- so please Darlings, do not waste it.
I have been very fortunate in my life. My battle with Time started the minute I gave birth to Gracen. Suddenly Time became my worst enemy- stealing her babyhood and forcing me to live in the moment just long enough to realize the moments will keep passing by. I recall in the beginning googling every passing phase- to see when it would end. When will she sleep? When will she roll over? When will she talk, walk, or run? I didn’t know then, what I can not forget now- the answer is, in her own time.
And in time, Time brought his friends to me one by one. Time brought over, patience and understanding. Time brought me, maturity and growth. Time brought me , reflection and healing too. And then, when Time realized I couldn’t do it all on my own, he brought me friends to see me through. Friends who I could never live without. Friends who make the time in between the good and the bad, easier.
During this time of the year, I watch Time move more slowly. I think that’s a good thing for all of us, but it’s certainly what’s best for my Mama heart. These little people of mine are growing up faster than I am ready for. Time knows, I’ll never be ready to move forward, but I do adore watching them grow.
I hope to make my peace with Time someday. I can tell you now, when my time here is over, I will always be left thinking, I needed more time but it won’t be spent on old regrets- I have none of those now.
For whatever it’s worth to you, all my time has been spent loving each of you. And to be quite honest, I’d like this time to never end.