Forgive me while I indulge in this baby love joy for just a little while longer. I want to remember ever moment of these first few weeks with Leighton. I realize time and reality are both working against me.
Leighton’s birth was impossibly awful. Like the stuff nightmares are made of- but how quickly I ( and every other woman on Earth) will forget that pain and focus only on the beauty of this tiny creature.
I want to tell you how she’s the collective prayer of Matt and I, and how she’s made us feel more whole from the moment she was delivered. Leighton is delicate and lady like- the smallest of our three children. She’s very calm and sweet. She can cry, but doesn’t. She’s really focused on getting her rest, while the rest of us stare at her all day long. I imagine it’s hard being the third child; her siblings are so excited by her, that they are always in her face.
She is for now, everyone’s baby and so she is spoiled with attention and love. You really can’t ask for more than that.
Leighton’s little spirit is a bit afraid of the newness that surrounds her. This planet seems to be too much for her, most of the time.
She is timid, and requires a major adjustment period. Her birth was similar- my body was pushing her out and she was fighting to stay in. Now that she’s three weeks old, she’s starting to wake up more, and she’s fighting it with every breath.
She would like to stay visiting heaven for just a little longer. But it’s fine, I really don’t mind. I’m happy to visit with her in the times she wants to be here.
The kids and my family, came to see her a few hours after she was born. When you have several children – you don’t get much down time.
I have to keep reminding myself that I have three kids. In the very beginning, my mind couldn’t process this. I thought of them as two separate families. But now it’s all coming together.
I hope someday when they look back, they are as impressed by their cuteness as I am. I can’t believe we got this lucky. Matt and I must be the luckiest couple on Earth.
For two people who didn’t always get it right the first time, we sure hit it out of the park this time.
Thank you for all of you who have followed our story from Gracen onward. Thank you for being in this space and watching our family grow.